I wonder why it’s always you. I’ve been trying my best to keep my distance and create a barrier between us, but I just can’t stop thinking about you. I love the way you are — the way you smile, talk, and glance; your eyes, your silky hair, and especially your nose.
I never realized I was starting to catch feelings until your absence made me feel lonely. I kept asking myself, Why you? It could have been anyone else, but I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I wonder if you feel the same way about me.
There’s this constant feeling that whenever you walk into the room, you still make me nervous. So maybe, just maybe, this is the reason I feel this way about you. Your presence eases my anxiety, and it always seems like my mood depends on yours. When you tell me you hate someone, I also dislike that person.
The moments when I find something funny or relatable, the first thing I want to do is send it to you. Even if noises surround us, I can only hear your voice the moment you speak. I’m not afraid of being vulnerable because I feel safe with you.
I’ve always wanted to love you openly, but I guess I’m just scared of being rejected. How would I know if you feel the same way, right? You never initiate our conversations, but the moment I mention your name, you respond faster than the speed of light. Are you shy? Or do you already have someone else in your life?
I never told you this, but I appreciate you just for being you. You inspire me to do better in school because, to me, you’re a woman capable of things no one else could do. You are invincible — pretty, smart, and humorous — a sight for sore eyes.
Well, maybe that’s why I love you.
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Editor’s Note: This piece is a contributed submission. The views and emotions expressed are those of the writer.
